而這總會痛

you are much more bounded by what surrounding you than what you ever think
and fact is you can never begin with a clean slate
but you can attempt to depart from the old self abruptly
and to gradually undergo the adaptation

and this is, of course a costly and painful experience
but what the pupae suffer is pretty much the same isnt it?

metamorphosis,
it is how the whole thing's named

yes this is but another piece of bullshit cliche

but i hope one day when i wake up i can find myself feeling freer clearer than at anytime