this is in fact a love letter

順心情選背景音樂
抑或背景音樂決定心情

大概分不開來

像失戀時聽慘情歌

然後聽慘情歌時想起失戀

都不過是association

被流行文化哺養的我們
自然都有用流行曲盛載記憶的習慣

面書上看到了陌生人的分享
daft punk的歌裡最喜歡的一首
喚作something about us
恆常叫錯做something between us
可能因為我一直暗自把它視作我們之間的background music
(用不上theme song這個字吧  反正沒太多劇情)

我想你應該不記得(或根本沒有留意)

我們結緣於一句daft punk的歌詞分享

而當時的你大概也不知道
以下其實是寫給你的情信


dear X,

sometimes i find myself can hardly tell
what did and did not happen between us
since we are all embracing our own truth
it may be really wrong to think too much
but silence provides the biggest room for imagination
and i believe in complexity
you can never tell you can never know
there is nothing more deceptive than feelings
though this appears to be the mere thing i can live on
honey- coated lies or the god-damned reality
the latter is always my choice
so please
love or loathe me for who i am
please do.

yours, O
3 Jan 2010


很稚劣
但反正都過去了
只能悼念